Friday, June 9, 2017

Countdown begins...

50 days to go before my world travel. I can't wait to begin. Although I am still coupled with worries, I know that staying organised will help me put 'a tick' on all the checklist of logistics I need before I begin my journey.

The days are pouring like the weather here in Manila. It often rains even if the monsoon season hasn't started yet. I've been living here in my mum's place for the past 1.5 months and I am happy to be here. Being with family is very nurturing and helps me take away all the worries I have looking ahead. I know that a great deal of ordeal is about to happen when I return back to Sydney. So far so good. I am much better now.

I started to do my first vlog. and I remembered to also update the old-fashioned way ~blog. 

Friday, April 28, 2017

Dark ages end.

After all the waiting and living under darkness, finally the spectacle of light appeared.  It created a rainbow and a gleaming pot of gold presented itself.

Now I begin the planning of the journey I was looking forward to.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Off to chase rainbows and butterflies

Admittedly this route I am about to take is what my tagline mentions. Walking with blindfold and figuring out where I am headed to.

I don't know what tomorrow brings though I like the idea of going back home. Back where it all began. My hometown, the Philippines.

I intend to find out what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. It begins with a complete silence. Reflection. Brainstorming. Unstressed mind without time constraint.

I know that once I reach an idea it will blossom to something special. A place with endless rainbows and butterflies.

Back to basic. Make fantasy come to reality.

Monday, April 10, 2017

See ya later, SYD.

I'm a bit anxious to get back home to Philippines but I know there are a LOT of things to think about. It is not easy going back without a plan especially when I am staying in Manila for the next 5 months.

I know clearly that the last thing I want to think about is having to stress about what I want to do with my career when I get back in Sydney in September. One reason for this career break is to reflect on what direction I wanted to choose when I get back. So it seems that I have a lot of time to think this through.

I can't help but wonder about this transition and this journey I am about to embark upon.

Nostalgic to think about people I havr met along the way whilst I was in Sydney. I know they are always on my back and I can lean on them when things get tough.

I hope for the best and I bid Sydney goodbye for now. See ya later, mates!

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

2016 missing

There is this huge cloud over 2016 for me. I know I have not blogged for the whole year. But now I have finally moved on...

Losing my father last year was a big heartache. Living in another country, another continent makes it unbearable. I tend to look for something that will divert the thoughts temporarily.

Now I am ready to put them in writing. He was one of the great pillars in my life that I look up to. The person who is very considerate and appreciate the little efforts I put through back when I was young. Actually both my parents are the best parents anyone can wish for. Very ideal and they brought me up quite well and I am proud of that.

The day I learnt about my father's passing, was when I was with my older brother after he picked me up from NAIA. The emotions were not visible but in my heart it was in unimaginable pain. I let go of all the walls that I built to protect my composure and I hugged a friend. I started crying. But deep inside, I know that he is in a much better place and he would like us to move on and get on with our lives.

Throughout the year, I was doing my best at work. Trying to do what I like most. I am not bounded by traditions so I went on for holidays to Melbourne, New Zealand, Japan, Thailand and back to Philippines pre-Christmas. I learnt that my avenue for sorrow still belongs to travelling.

When I travel I go to a different mindset. A place where I venture the unexpected. Learn of other cultures. Appreciate the arts. See how other people in other countries live their life. And discover my thirst to explore something new.

Though I missed 366 days worth of entries on this blog, I know that I can encapsulate everything in one notion. That is, I learnt how to let go and I took baby steps to moving on. 

Thursday, December 3, 2015


So much to look forward to. Anticipating. I just wait with uncertainties but I have faith. I know everything will work out as He desires it.

I will be patient. I wait.

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

crazy weather and some blabbering

firstly let me say that the weather is just so bad that makes me want to just go somewhere else except sydney. just on the weekend it was so intensely hot. now someone walks in and turns the switch around and now its really wintery cold. whats wrong with you sydney. arggh!

then this crazy woman in the office whom i shall call ape girl "jane" take note she's an executive but keeps on blabbering left and right at the topmost range her squeeeeky voice. far out! i just hope someone has the guts to say a big SHUTDAFUCKUP!

there you go. i realised blogging makes my soul bit lighter now. And again, Jane has a counterpart who seats adjacent to her. I call him Gimli, the king of dwarfs. Although he has no hair he is so barbaric and always makes the annoying noise all the time. As frequent as he smokes like a chimney! Anyway my two cents is that executives should either be stripped from their title if they don't have the proper decorum on how to act their age and how to act their positions. Also, they can go back to their caves where they truly belong.

anyway living in the city can be a pain. firstly the security guards are so strict i.e., when it comes to guest you have to signin and they have curfew! they treat us like all of us are studying. we're decent professionals for crying out loud. just counting the days till the lease expire and off we go! also the pain of travelling everyday to work. although only takes me 25 mins but for some reason i always feel exhausted day in day out.

whatelse, oh the good thing is that i started to read again. i finished a book called a thousand splendid suns, it was phenomenal. there were so many things i didn't realise about the middle east and its culture. the dark ages in afghan history. the way the story unfolds was really riveting and i love how each character develops in the journey that intertwines their own stories. at the end i can't help but marvel at how laila has redeemed herself and mariams memory lives on...