Saturday, January 30, 2010

i want to ... but i don't!

Sunny Saturday, heaps of things I can do. I want to do. But I just don't. I can't explain this state of mind. Something tells me I have to go get a psychiatrist.

I want to...

bike or jog around Glebe and grab my late lunch;
grocery shop;
go out clubbing tonight;
meet up with people.

I perceive that I've used blogs to whinge about all this insanities I feel. Its just that I'm utterly bored but I'm stupidly lazy. But not extremely though cos I've been a good boy and doing my laundry as I type.

Lots of thoughts are going through my head. I want to accomplish these things in few months time:

enrol for further studies;
edit my CV and thinking of doing audit again;
travel alone badly (interstate next weekend, Egypt before my elite krisflyer expires);
go back home for couple of weeks and enjoy the humidity (possibly this March).

but then again, i hope my state of mind goes stable. and at least i can accomplish some of these.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Random Quotes

“Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happiness would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.”

Alishia Southall

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

The Jarocin House

I've been living in this shared house for exactly three months now. And its blog-worthy to discuss about how it all goes.

The Characters
Mr. Peru - Awesome guy! He's just in his early 20's but he is our big boss. Sort of like the big mafia man. He brings guests in for parties and he is indeed very responsible. He would arrange for house rules (which i would dwell on in a bit).

Ms. Australia - She's the significant other of Mr. Peru. They live-in together when I moved in. I was surprised that she moved out two weeks ago. I initially thought that they broke up but I saw her just two days ago visiting us. She told me she's living in Chippendale closer to work. I share the same sentiments with her that its best to live in a place convenient to work (walking distance to her office). She's nice, friendly and easy to make her laugh.

Ms. Pink (or Mister?) - She looks like Pink, because her hair's pink and cut shorter. I think she was the culprit on the vampire incident that shocked me the most when I moved in before (hint: check my October 2009 post regarding Vampire). She is currently traveling to Romania cos she just finished her uni. Hence, she no longer lives in the house. It is now occupied by Mr. Australia after Ms. Taiwan took over.

Ms. Sweden - The coolest house mate ever. Too bad she had to go to greener pasteur. Sweet lotsa stories to tell. Even lets me hangout with her Swedish friends and the ever coolest friend Jack (reminds me of Just Jack, really). She just celebrated her birthday, unfortunately it coincided with David Sedaris' evening book reading. But I should have gone to her party. I miss her most especially the time we made fun of Ms. Taiwan's weird weird ways.

Ms. Taiwan - The one who took over Ms. Sweden's room. She's weird. Like she's secludes herself in the confinement of her room. Day-in and day-out she's in her room, never even goes out of the house. She looks nice but if I have to judge- she looks like she's doing witchcraft or spells of some sorts. There was one incident where she has crossed the line of weirdness and total insanity. Imagine that she used up all of my toilet papers to put in between the spaces of the toilet door. Imagine that the door has this Venetian blinds design. Justification is that she couldn't sleep cos of the noise of faucet leaking and the flush at night. She told me she even put earplugs while sleeping. WTF?

Mr. Chile - The New Kid on the Block. He looked like a teenager but on his early 20's. He's fun. Lots of drinking and party nights initiated by him. Through him, I have been hanging out with his Chilean buds. It was cool. He's the next best thing after Ms. Sweden. Cos I see him a lot in the patio when I'm doing my laundry. He even taught me the washing machine laundry trick. But this guy is so afraid of spiders. Swears at mossies and cockroaches.

Mr. Aussie - This is the weird weird guy that replaced Ms. Taiwan's room. I reckon Ms. Taiwan has put a spell on whoever takes over her room. Indeed the bizarre spell has possessed this guy. First day I saw him, he was running up and down the stairs doing nothing. accomplishing nothing. he leaves all his footwear outside the house. WTF, the house is a total chaos and even his room is messy. What's with that? But I have to give the benefit of the doubt. I haven't really talked to the guy and his a week old living in the Jarocin house.

Ms. French - I am looking forward to meet her. I haven't have the slightest idea who she is yet. She'll be moving in on Sunday and I hope she's like Ms. Sweden or Mr. Chile.

Spider Toilet
There are two toilets in the house. One situated near the patio and one near Ms. Pink, Ms. Taiwan and Mr. Australia's room. The one near the patio is the spider toilet. Although its so cool, cos you'll see vandals from previous tenants. It still gives me the creeps whenever I take a leak. There are giant spiders inside that one point I think was the biggest challenge I ever did. My bladder was already exploding and Ms. Taiwan was still putting her toilet papers in the Venetian door of the other toilet. I took the plunge and prayed so hard that no spider will appear. I almost had a black out but good thing I survived that initiation.

The Mixed-up Washing Machine
This is the one that Mr. Chile gave me some advice for. This washing machine is just demented. It won't let me wash my clothes properly. There were couple of times that I have to squeeze my clothes after washing cos it doesn't know how to spin dry. And one instance I put my clothes and the powder in but not even the water is coming out. I did the normal hand wash like I have a choice. And it became the longest laundry day of my life. And here comes Mr. Chile saying that I need to shake the brain of the washing machine. I did. And it's now working. Shake shake and you have to constantly watch it like a kid playing in the field.

Mr. Peru's House Rules
Very simple, really. He scheduled each one of us to take the rubbish out. Clean the toilet. Buy toilet papers, rubbish bags, dishwashing liquid. No noise during Sunday morning-meaning curfew for Saturday night drinking at the patio.

My early bloopers
Imagine I was climbing the great wall of Jarocin House whenever someone locked the door from the inside. There was this one time my neighbour saw me and I have to explain it really hard that I live in the house and I'm not a robber. Only to know from Mr. Chile and Ms. Taiwan that the knob of the door can be turned from the outside.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

angel's delight

the fragrant and alluring charisma of an angel
it raptures my body with distinct pleasure
takes away melancholy and distant desires
fruity, sparkly and it twinkles my skin in a subtle way
it refreshes me and gives me a distinct radiance

thanks to Lush® limited edition soaps. :)

The Hilarious David Sedaris

Fabulous night with the great David Sedaris.
And he's even spectacular when he did the book reading.
I'm really happy that he would release a book this fall (U.S. season, i reckon)
He even had a Q&A during his show and it was heaps interesting.

After two hours of queueing for him to sign my book,
finally we were able to be up close with him.
Talked about how he finds it strange that Manila has all those cables visible.
and he signed my 'Dress Your Family with Corduroy and Denim' book as shown below.



XS.
I hafta tell him that I was tempted to jump the long queue cos I'm short. One of his jokes was all short people should be given priority. Haha :P and can you believe he's just 5'5".

Too bad my friend slept during the show. But still I thank him for coming with me though.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

a hundred million suns

million glitters in the sky
i once had a dream but i have to let it go
nostalgia hit me again and it troubles me
but i can just dream and wish for it

funny how i've been looking for something that i can't even have
maybe it will come, maybe it won't
but the feeling that a glimpse of hope is just around the corner
keeps me going on and yes, it never failed to make me smile.

a hundred millions suns. and if there's a rocket tie me to it.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

the worried mouse

i am often burdened by my responsibilities in the office. for one, the mere fact that we can't pay all our suppliers on time threatens the going-concern of the company. and the obvious indication that they can't even pay our salaries and wages on time. now that is serious. i know, its unprofessional to talk about work. but this consumes me day after day. now that i have to handle redundancies. again, i am troubled.

if only there is a suitable work environment ready to pick me up and believe in what i can do. sometimes i am worried that my bosses do not even know how (even the slightest) that i am working very hard. no pat on the shoulder. no compliments. i was used to that kind of environment where merit is always rewarded.

at the end of the day, i am just glad that i have a job. and i am thankful for it.

but seriously, this aspect still does trouble me.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

can u handle hot? pure evil grin in me...

I guess this is a question for someone who would have a lower threshold for hot temperature, that is in terms of perspiration. My whole body seemed like a leaking faucet. Originating from my forehead down to my back. Even the use of my D&G anti-perspirant is futile. Sheer embarrassment occurred to me when I was walking down at Sydney Uni. Everyone's looking at me. They were obviously thinking someone threw a water balloon at my back, underarms, front and my whole face.

I decided to strip my shirt off and remedy this jabaric situation using USYD toilet's hand dryer. Good thing, it was rectified. Remind me to wear undershirt next time. I was just being Aussie by not putting any under shirt. So bite me.

XS1.
Lets digress, shall we. There will come a point in your life that u will think that abusiveness cannot be tolerated anymore. Enough is enough. Though I felt bit bad with my actions. Hence tomorrow I will do something about it. Go early at work and try to please them. Reverse psychology might work on both accounts.

I placed the leech in the aquarium jar rather than killing it. There might be something I can do about their unrealistic demands. Perhaps give them frozen jello and make up for the unchivalry behaviour in me.

XS2.
Another story. Mike, our new house mate is really strange. I bet he's either schizophrenic or druggie (as what my friends have suggested). For one, he goes up and down and all around the house. Doing absolutely nothing. Slams everything. Keeps his shoes outside the house even if his room and the house are in a total chaotic state. But lets observe and will finally conclude by next week.

Monday, January 11, 2010

the crazy weekend

been up all night and its crazy as hell. always on parties and drinks. i think its based on the premise that the week to come would be a big deal and we just want to unworry. unstress. ala-NRMA ad.

i just cant divulge info here. it was fun night, met a lot of new friends. went out of the box by trying to do something new. indeed it was hot as summer can be!

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mondays are usually the lowest point to work but still i have done lots of tasks today. i actually ran out of things to do in the office. hence i opted to use facebook and cook through my cafe world.

its all gloomy outside and all i wanna do is go home and start surfing the net. now that im online, i just want to sleep. i think im demented. i need a surge of retail therapy again to cure this state of mind.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

and I'm an official fan!

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who never lets go. Someone who cherishes you forever.

- Ally McBeal.

senselessness

anguished souls. burdened by myself unknowingly. carried away by eccentricity. i am sorry but trying to straighten things out. its futile. i'm not interested. next page please...

***

Summer's heat is on. After the hangover from guys night out, we played badminton. Too exhausted and lacking sleep. At least I shed off some calories.

Still wondering if I will go out tonight. Still pondering. Is it worth it?

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I am demented. Yes and this doesn't make any sense at all.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Rondz' Wishlist 2010

When you're down, sometimes shopping can be a therapy. As wikipedia would say, it improves our mood or disposition in periods of depression or transition. and that is what you call - retail therapy.

Hang on?! I've used up my life savings during the past months of recession not to mention travels. How can this be possible?

Times like this, study shows that "window shopping online" can be an alternative to the actual retail therapy. Instead of buying, you are drawn to put up a wishlist. The same feel-good satisfaction you get when you walk around shops.

So far my wishlist are the following:
1. Stewie's Head

Will probably get this before the fiscal year ends? I still have lots of TV Shows to watch. And I reckon stocktake clearance sale would justify buying this!

2. The Book Thief

At the rate I'm going with my book readings, seems like I would justify to buy this one during Winter. Although Summer would help a lot cos I would be bringing something to read in the beach. But still have loads of books to read... I reckon Winter '10.

3. Ponyo DVD

I will definitely buy this DVD on Thursday, late night shopping day. Remember I always have fifty bucks shopping accrual. What justifies it? Rotten Tomato's review!

4. Evening with David Sedaris: 16/01/10

I will book this show on Friday, even if I'm going alone! I don't care. I would have a good laugh. I can concentrate even more. Hold it... I know I would look like a big L. So I might give one free ticket to a friend or a date. Let's see.

5. Gucci, Navy Blue Thong

I've tried it on, and it was spectacular.. Hmm... Fabulous if you may. I deserve to buy this, maybe as a Birthday Gift! :P

6. Bally, Transporter Tan Messanger Bag

Yes, I know. I wouldnt be able to use this. I'm working on a much lower profile company. If I were still in Ernst & Young I would definitely consider it. But right now, no no no! But maybe Christmas time, this could be a perfect gift for myself. And at that time, I would be working in a much better corporate environment.


Stress. Anxiety. - all gone!

Friday, January 1, 2010

HNY 2010.

A start of a new decade can be promising. Hopes and dreams are indeed carried-over. Aspirations seem to be auspicious. We venture our life with lots of mistakes, dismay and things we regret doing. But come to think of it, lessons were learned.

Resolutions. Quite pathetic and such a cliché. I would have to say that I will again strive with all my will power to succeed in endeavours I wanted to achieve.

So much has happened in 2009. I would not want to forget them. Yes, those are moments in the past but it musters courage giving me strength to face a promising year ahead. No need to jot down or recap these events, as they have been journalised. Sealed. and now I'm moving on.

Starting a new life can be refreshing. Yet can be scary sometimes. As long as we know that we have a concrete road to step on, choosing the path would be manageable.

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This years NYE was celebrated @ Ryde Municipality. Over at Niko's. But we were in the City after 6pm. I never realised that there would be 9pm fireworks. Shoot! If only we knew, we could have stayed bit longer.

No worries, at least we were able to have bit of drinks at my place. Together with my spanish speaking house mates and their hullata guests. We were obviously got lost in translation and decided to head out over at Niko's.

XS.
Don't treat me rubbish if you don't want to be treated rubbish. Otherwise, its going to be a dumpster and its not going to smell nice.