Thursday, September 30, 2010

i seem to have lost my key

where's the damn keys? So many keys are jumbled in this shoe box that i can't open this fragile item. this has been locked up not so long ago. i shouldn't have secured it but then again it was too delicate to expose on such an early stage.

i don't regret securely holding it and keeping the locked box under my bed. i know for one, it can always be found. but never did i realise that such a long time i would lose the key. the only key that can open something very dear to me that would define the very me. i'm thinking: should i force it open? i reckon not! for it would destroy the outer-being of the secured device.

it is now my duty to tidy up every aspect of the room. the missing key is just around. can be anywhere inside. i'm sure. i just need time to find it... or maybe wait for it to appear.

weird enough. sometimes when u least expect it. and not even looking for it. for some unexplainable force of nature, it will magically present itself.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

random thoughts

overindulgent, not so good
subconscious always tell me that i shouldn't be carried away too much. but the irony is the more we deprive ourself with something always ends up with doing it again and again. it is repugnant, i believe. some spare buffer wouldn't hurt. sacrifice and discipline are key things I should practice.

another one is influences can play a vital role in pushing u to the limit. it can be hazardous but then again - will power - can be a key driver to avoid this behaviour.

pinoy pride
i know it is already overrated. but i just discovered Charice's enormous talent. i confess that i've been watching her success story every night before i sleep. one after another, until it diversified to other great pinoy talents we have. i.e., Arnel Pineda, PGT finalists, etc. makes me more proud! esp. when I saw Glee last week. she never fails to give me goosebumps! too much power and soul when she sings.

unusually quiet office bores me
office without the big bosses makes it unusually quiet and boring! i've been missing for two days last week. blame it on the stupid weather that gave me colds. but without our dear CEO and CFO - everything is quiet. i have to literally look for something interesting to do. and this brought twittering back to my current vocabulary.

emotionally ready and eager to speed up the 'Project'
only a few knows about the main 'Project', maybe its feasible. but time and chance play vital role in achieving this. inasmuch as I want to be optimistic, I guess it won't happen as expected.

handful of dreams when the 'Big Bang Theory' crystallizes. its free to dream and it gives me something to look forward to. although I reckon it won't happen yet. maybe I'm wrong. but be happy to be proven wrong. at any instance if it really happens then I will be the happiest man on Earth... I mean in Australia. cos lots of people will be happier back home.

to bring back the love... of reading
been too preoccupied from reading heaps of books stacked in my dusty shelf. but lately, I started reading again. only because beach + sun = lay down and read. i hope the passion for reading comes back to me soon. can't wait to shop for new and exciting reads. Glebe bookstores have been calling me badly. like the mannequins in the Shopaholic movie..

I honestly have gazillion thoughts to put in here but I will park them here in my terrible memory bank. lets see if I can still recall by tomorrow

Monday, September 27, 2010

Throw a Rock ~ and Break the Dry Ice

perhaps this is the quietest i've ever been
its dry and i can't explain it any simpler.
the once colourful and fruitful days have died down
not that i don't do anything out of the ordinary
but lets just say creativity's all been gone.

days pass by so fast, also u just realise how quick season changes
and i can't feel i am living it, i want to pause this routinary boring moments
and live it according to my dreams and how i wanted it to be - in an orderly fashion.
but reality is: it takes supernatural strength, ability &inspiration to make things happen
and of course the right time - when the universe conspires with you.

i know its all mushy and seems like i'm going nowhere with this
but this is how i feel. that i am revolving through dreams but going round the circles
i need a force that will adversely change my direction
it can be a gamble, risking it to a different way
but at least life gets bit exciting and it complements my desires.

Friday, September 17, 2010

The B word

Everything becomes B!

First one I reckon is busy. Lately I've got no time to put thoughts into words. Consumed by chaos but its riveting and more often it can be boring too. You just have to know how to deal with it. With a sense of creativity.

Secondly, Bally has been the theme. I just love this brand now. The red stripe is just too classy.

How about Big? Yeah, bigger tummy! Caused by consumption of Beer and Bacon! haha Now I'm just mumbling anything that starts with B.

At the end I just want to B more organised. Take me out of this chaotic world I'm living in. Sort is such a hard verb to do. I need my obsessive-compulsive mode to return to an orderly peaceful rondzkee world.